A follow up from the previous blog log from yesterday....
"Third, being an Asian makes it worse. Not that I despise my skin colour..just stating the obvious fact that its harder for asian to snag a good job in the UK than most of the 'white'. This might sound really cruel and racist..but it is the fact nobody really wanna talk about."
This part from yesterday log caught my love's (who isn't very pleased) attention..We debated about it for quite sometime and maybe I was a lil too racist about it..Probably it is more of the fact that I'm a Malaysian (a foreigner) who is trying to make it work in another country. It made me thought about how those Bangladesh/ Indonesian worker were treated back in my home country. Its kinda sad..I know how it feels to be in that very situation where all you want is to just make it work for once!!
Ps: There is still a small part of me does get annoyed by a handful of people out there who just hated Asian to the core..*in fact, I have really met some quite some time ago...maybe not in England*. Everybody should be treated equally. Fair share based on your skills, ability, knowledge and sensibility.
Sometimes I wonder, am I mature enough to make great decisiom and changes to my life?? Am I being overly protected by the people around me that I become vulnerable when I slowly have to leave their constant hold of hand and walk alone..
Even after so many years of studies in the field of architecture,it would be natural that I would end up doing my apprenticeship towards getting my charteredship in architecture..First,not only that I am not even close to getting an aprenticeship as I am currently working as a CAD technician analysing lighting issues..Secondly, I honestly ain't sure if a job as an architect fits me well..somehow I see architecture very differently from most of my archi mates..I am in fact pretty ashamed to admit that I don't go all in for "awww..this is such a beautiful piece of architecture..look at the intricate column & bla bla bla..". Most of the time I look at the people around it, what will they be thinking? Do they understand that art or is it just a building! Do they enjoy living in it? Not only do I not fully apreciate the building, neither would I understand the point of it..Third, being an asian makes it worse. Not that I despise my skin colour..just stating the obvious fact that its harder for asian to snag a good job in the UK than most of the 'white'. This might sound really cruel and racist..but it is the fact nobody really wanna talk about (sorry Sam,if you somehow read this..i don't hate English btw..I love you!!). .
So I wonder, will I enjoy being one?? Will I ever suceed in my career? What do I really want to be?? I'm not sure what step should I really be taking while every single day seems to wilt away slowly..i do wonder sometimes what I would be if I hadn't step into this field of studies..will I be a different person then? Hmmm..I really do wonder!!
I hope something good would turn up soon..God I pray to you..
Earlier there was this fuss about "BERSIH" which if translated in English means CLEAN. Honestly at first it struck me as a commotion about useless stuff that Malaysia is well known of and I really can't be bothered to check it out..I'm not exactly the best person to be blogging about politics. As I don't really have interest on that topic. I rather spend my time reading some no-name guy writing about his weird perspective of life than spending an hour listening to the news.
Coming back to the topic (I'm swaying away from what I'm suppose to be blogging about..as usual)..so this commotion about the BERSIH rally had became a big hit in my home country...Not only people in the country itself but some to other Malaysians in London, New York, Australia and bla bla bla (can't remember all the country where the scattered Malaysian had taken part in this rally). Almost everyone on my facebook list (which are mostly Malaysian, and some other people from some other places) had the BERSIH badge pasted sharp and yellow on their profile picture...So I decided, I must check it out..especially people around me started to write how we should support this rally and its a turning point for Malaysia..its time we speak for ourself as the citizen of the country and so many other political issues involve..
In fact, I did not still really took notice of this issue till after the rally itself where there were videos (click on the video above and you'll get what I meant by abused!!) of people who took part in the rally were beaten by the police who were there to control the situation. I was kinda shock the way people were treated by the justice upholder of the country. I never really see it coming..I mean, since Malaysia is a democratic country, I believe we have the right for free speech. Adding that this concern our country's society as a whole. Noted that, this rally was held to submit a memorandum to the king requesting for a more transparent and cleaner government, elections, and other political issues that are involved (this includes no bribery, equality, scandals and money laundering schemes among the higher authorities). Dumbfounded!!
While watching some of the clips posted on you tube, a line from V-for-Vendetta struck me, 'the government should be afraid of the people and not the other way round'. That is the line that our government should really be looking at. I was deeply hurt to the point that tears started welling up around my eyes while watching those clips of people being kicked, slapped and thrown on the ground by the police during the rally. It was suppose to be a peaceful rally but ended up so badly that so many citizens of Malaysia were hurt. In Malaysia, its always been the case where many of us kept quiet without questioning the government, supporting them always hoping they would bring wealth, unity and peacefulness to the people and the society. However, looking at what they had done to their people when all they asked for is a peaceful rally in hope for a more fair, justified and cleaner politic where every single citizen has the right and place in the country.
For those who attended the rally, I'm really truly proud of you..You guys had done a great job. I express my stand here in the country of supporting for a cleaner and transparent government in which every single citizen are equal. I'm sorry for those who are hurt badly during the rally. I hope you guys get well soon. All the best in fighting for the true right as a citizen and what's best for the country as a whole.
I realise I had neglected you for some time..Maybe its time to get blogging again..Come to think of it, you have gone thick and thin with me..we been through so many beautiful memories and rough patches together..
So I guess I should probably start blogging again soon!! I wish I'm more hardworking..I get too lazy sometimes, that I really can't be bothered to even on my laptop..nonetheless BLOG!!
*in fact, I'm actually writing this post from my office..New resolution for the year..come back blogging once again!!
