Spammed??? Raped???

I just felt that my blog was being brutally raped by the 'other' author..It was kinda dumb, as I did not think hard enough and long enough before allowing Dr-to-be-SAM MARSHALL to help me write my blog..

Dear readers,
The initial idea was to blog about my recent trip in Lanzarote. I had enjoy a long weekend with beautiful cool crystal clear sea with warm sun, fine sandy beach with great company and lovely food which I personally would very much like to share with you guys. A four days trip pack with loads of exploring of volcatnic caves and lazying along those sandy beaches. However, I got caught up tonight helping a friend with some proof reading work and wasn't able to blog those in detail (I'm gonna blog it soon before I leave with Yen to Prague and Vienna). Sorry!!

So my dear darling Sam Mashall offered to blog that for me..unfortunately he decided that it would be pretty awesome to write something else. So somehow I felt like my blog was boasting about her 'owner' PROFUSELY (can't find the right word to put it..sounds a lil weird there)

Damm..now my blog has another author..I need to find a much 'cooler' way to sign off than Sam...

Love (like my sign off?? Don't you think is pretty sweet and sexy??),
Shirlyn

Shirlyn is Very Pretty.

Shirlyn is too busy to blog today, so I thought I'd help out. Unfortunately, I don't have much emotional baggage to unload, so I'll just restate how pretty I think Miss Low is.

Peace out!
Sam

Sick Leave Day

There is no nicer way to describe my current condition, so bear with me in this post entry...

Have not been able to poop for a few days now, so basically my body is filled with poop!! *told ya, its not gonna be a pleasant topic to discuss, but I'm gonna do it anyway..feel free to hop off my blog while you can..before I continue to describe how disgustingly awesome my lil poopy had done to me*

It's just defying me..I love FOOD to much to stop eating, in order to reduce the quantity of poop in my stomach..but no, I'm gonna continuosly stuff my face with pies..made smoke mackerel pie & steak and ale pie for the weekend..

Anyway, due to my greed for food and more good food..I had to skip work...swallow some laxative and get these harmful poop out of me..These few days 'they' had given me a really difficult weekend, feeling bloated all the time..arghhh...hate them making me feel like I've gain 10 pounds..

Hope I get better tomorrow!!

Lilies and Dinner

Coming back after a long day from work, coffee and morning interview, its always nice to see someone you love waving and smiling cheek to cheek by the road waiting to hug you that very instance. What more to ask when he surprise you with your favorite flowers. Honestly I always had  this very negative perspective of boyfriend giving roses for valentine are really really lame and unimaginative..(You can't really expect a girl to sleep with you with just a bunch of roses..seriously, it would never work out!!) However, when someone comes along and bring you your favorite flowers, which you did not mentioned to him on purposed..perhaps did talk about it a lil before the dating thing started..that is pretty SWANKY !! 

I'm impressed Dr-to-be Sam Marshall..*You stalk my blog..so you'll gonna read this post anyway*

Adding to that, we had a nice dinner in a up-classed cocktail bar/ restaurant at Quod. It wasn't really a good dinner to start as we aren't greeted by the waitress who was standing by the door not even bothered to say 'hi' or something. Then came along a really hot waitress who apparently had similar first name as Dr-to-be Sam Marshall. The first thing I pointed out was 'hey darling ..look apparently there is a waitress who will be serving us and she's really pretty!!' And as usual Sam would go, 'maybe we should invite her for a threesome..give her your phone number..wink at her (which I can never wink, blame my parents..genetic problem!!)'. Soon dinner with him is the usual jokes, laughter, lil peck on the cheek and of course stalking the hot waitress every time she walk past us!! 

Lovely dinner and lilies did help me ease my worries about the riot that is happening in Birmingham (be safe Eric and others who are there) and London. Even Oxford which is ever seeming so safe starting to have helicopter swirling in the air and police patrolling all the streets..It kinda feels like we're in some kind of safety crisis here..Be safe everyone..

Rectification of Opinion

A follow up from the previous blog log from yesterday....

"Third, being an Asian makes it worse. Not that I despise my skin colour..just stating the obvious fact that its harder for asian to snag a good job in the UK than most of the 'white'. This might sound really cruel and racist..but it is the fact nobody really wanna talk about."

This part from yesterday log caught my love's (who isn't very pleased) attention..We debated about it for quite sometime and maybe I was a lil too racist about it..Probably it is more of the fact that I'm a Malaysian (a foreigner) who is trying to make it work in another country. It made me thought about how those Bangladesh/ Indonesian worker were treated back in my home country. Its kinda sad..I know how it feels to be in that very situation where all you want is to just make it work for once!!

Ps: There is still a small part of me does get annoyed by a handful of people out there who just hated Asian to the core..*in fact, I have really met some quite some time ago...maybe not in England*. Everybody should be treated equally. Fair share based on your skills, ability, knowledge and sensibility. 

Career dilemma

Sometimes I wonder, am I mature enough to make great decisiom and changes to my life?? Am I being overly protected by the people around me that I become vulnerable when I slowly have to leave their constant hold of hand and walk alone..

Even after so many years of studies in the field of architecture,it would be natural that I would end up doing my apprenticeship towards getting my charteredship in architecture..First,not only that I am not even close to getting an aprenticeship as I am currently working as a CAD technician analysing lighting issues..Secondly, I honestly ain't sure if a job as an architect fits me well..somehow I see architecture very differently from most of my archi mates..I am in fact pretty ashamed to admit that I don't go all in for "awww..this is such a beautiful piece of architecture..look at the intricate column & bla bla bla..". Most of the time I look at the people around it, what will they be thinking? Do they understand that art or is it just a building! Do they enjoy living in it? Not only do I not fully apreciate the building, neither would I understand the point of it..Third, being an asian makes it worse. Not that I despise my skin colour..just stating the obvious fact that its harder for asian to snag a good job in the UK than most of the 'white'. This might sound really cruel and racist..but it is the fact nobody really wanna talk about (sorry Sam,if you somehow read this..i don't hate English btw..I love you!!). .

So I wonder, will I enjoy being one?? Will I ever suceed in my career? What do I really want to be?? I'm not sure what step should I really be taking while every single day seems to wilt away slowly..i do wonder sometimes what I would be if I hadn't step into this field of studies..will I be a different person then? Hmmm..I really do wonder!!

I hope something good would turn up soon..God I pray to you..

CLEAN commotion

Earlier there was this fuss about "BERSIH" which if translated in English means CLEAN. Honestly at first it struck me as a commotion about useless stuff that Malaysia is well known of and I really can't be bothered to check it out..I'm not exactly the best person to be blogging about politics. As I don't really have interest on that topic. I rather spend my time reading some no-name guy writing about his weird perspective of life than spending an hour listening to the news.

Coming back to the topic (I'm swaying away from what I'm suppose to be blogging about..as usual)..so this commotion about the BERSIH rally had became a big hit in my home country...Not only people in the country itself but some to other Malaysians in London, New York, Australia and bla bla bla (can't remember all the country where the scattered Malaysian had taken part in this rally). Almost everyone on my facebook list (which are mostly Malaysian, and some other people from some other places) had the BERSIH badge pasted sharp and yellow on their profile picture...So I decided, I must check it out..especially people around me started to write how we should support this rally and its a turning point for Malaysia..its time we speak for ourself as the citizen of the country and so many other political issues involve..

In fact, I did not still really took notice of this issue till after the rally itself where there were videos (click on the video above and you'll get what I meant by abused!!) of people who took part in the rally were beaten by the police who were there to control the situation. I was kinda shock the way people were treated by the justice upholder of the country. I never really see it coming..I mean, since Malaysia is a democratic country, I believe we have the right for free speech. Adding that this concern our country's society as a whole. Noted that, this rally was held to submit a memorandum to the king requesting for a more transparent and cleaner government, elections, and other political issues that are involved (this includes no bribery, equality, scandals and money laundering schemes among the higher authorities). Dumbfounded!!

While watching some of the clips posted on you tube, a line from V-for-Vendetta struck me, 'the government should be afraid of the people and not the other way round'. That is the line that our government should really be looking at. I was deeply hurt to the point that tears started welling up around my eyes while watching those clips of people being kicked, slapped and thrown on the ground by the police during the rally. It was suppose to be a peaceful rally but ended up so badly that so many citizens of Malaysia were hurt. In Malaysia, its always been the case where many of us kept quiet without questioning the government, supporting them always hoping they would bring wealth, unity and peacefulness to the people and the society. However, looking at what they had done to their people when all they asked for is a peaceful rally in hope for a more fair, justified and cleaner politic where every single citizen has the right and place in the country.

For those who attended the rally, I'm really truly proud of you..You guys had done a great job. I express my stand here in the country of supporting for a cleaner and transparent government in which every single citizen are equal. I'm sorry for those who are hurt badly during the rally. I hope you guys get well soon. All the best in fighting for the true right as a citizen and what's best for the country as a whole.

Neglected Blog

I realise I had neglected you for some time..Maybe its time to get blogging again..Come to think of it, you have gone thick and thin with me..we been through so many beautiful memories and rough patches together..

So I guess I should probably start blogging again soon!! I wish I'm more hardworking..I get too lazy sometimes, that I really can't be bothered to even on my laptop..nonetheless BLOG!!

*in fact, I'm actually writing this post from my office..New resolution for the year..come back blogging once again!!

Reminiscence

After a long day of work..coming home just in time to stalk Alli's blog to see all those old high school picture reminds me of how much I missed high school. I wish now life could go back to high school..I miss all those girls..
Miss those crazy time when we sometimes try to skip bio and hide in the sick bay pretending to be busy with St John stuff..

I remember how I used to go training under the sun with the other girls..not even bothering how ugly i look, how sweaty I was..

I remember how I had to cut that "MUSHROOM" head with my 4 other clones..woa..those head was one of a kind!!

I remember how we always "curi makan keropok" during class under the desk..throw liquid paper behind class and hide "meteor-garden" dvd inside the curtain..

I remember how Mrs Woodhull call the 5 of us , "YOU GUYS WALKING ON YOUR OWN CLOUDS!!!"

I remember how Mr Lim like to stake that stupid marker & let it fall..

I remember how I used to always look at the answer behind the book cos I'm too lazy to do that damm "latih-tubi"

Think all about it now..makes me wanna fly back home n hug all those girls..High school was probably the best years of my life. I can never find that joy anywhere else in the world..Its CONVENT..that matters so much in my life..I love those girls..Pn Geetha, Pn Yeoh, Pn Ignatious, Pn David Tan (with the really tiny spec, not sure if it even works), all of u guys..thanks for those great memories..The imprint you gave to us were more valuable than any gold, the love & fun you showed us were incredible unforgetable and notorious!!

Cant believe I said that..but you guys (teachers and frens) are FUCKING COOL!!!!!

Stole some photo from ally..cos her photos are too good to be un-stole..Plus he photo definitely show the ugly side of me..go see her blog!! (See Ally, I help you promote..can I get some advert fees??)

The coolest ppl I met on earth..Especially the one on your most left...she like our "shuai-ge"
The Cutest classmates

The 5 MUSHROOM heads
Like the "COOLEST"

Thank you

Things had been quite rocky for me this few weeks..A break up to handle, mountains of studio work, cash are running low and recovering from a very bad sick.

Dun worry..I still slowly crawling, getting on my feet soon. I guess I am really a strong girl. I do blame myself over stupid little things I do though..But I realise many other precious things surrounding me.

Thanks God for guiding me through all this while. Though it was so hard that I almost break down into tears every 2 steps I take. But you gave me courage to continue this harsh journey.

Thanks all my caring and understanding frens who supported me even though I did do many stupid and pathetic stuff..Thanks for all the advise that cheered me up, that made me realise the mistake I've done.

Thanks mummy & daddy for listening and cheering me up all this while. You guys were inspirational. Never ever did u judge my mistake or his..You gave me all the support and understanding I needed. I was childish and crying all about..Then I realise, I have to start walking once again. I have to be strong for those who still love me.

Thanks for all those who were always by my side when I fall.

Hug

Lately been writing lots of emotional stuff on the bloggie..Been going through a rough patch which I hope would just dissapear this very moment.

Every once and then a hug means alot. Some may see that a hug as a simple friendly gesture. Some mayb see hug as a meaningful way to express love to someone. Some may thing it means nothing at all.

I would say hug cures every distant and sickness in the world. A hug from mummy now would be overwhelming. A hug from my bestie now would be brighten up my cloudy days. A hug from a lover would be truly comforting.

If you were ask to give a hug to someone. Will you give it??

Sometimes when your feeling really down..a hug would definitely cure all unhappiness your were crying over.

Would you imagine getting a hug from your enemy?? What would have happen?? Accidentally stab his stomach with a knife while giving a hug?? or resolve all hatred you have between you and your enemy???

Sometimes hug could be just a gesture or a act to resolve something where there is no other way to talk about. Seems false though but at least everything is still intact.

I guess hug truly has its power to work his wonder through difficult situations.

Heart broken

Moi heart is broken once again. Stupid of moi always getting own heart broken. Ain't careful enough to keep it safe for once.

Moi did stuff that shouldn't have been done.

If time would go back just for a moment....Many words should be left unsaid..Many words should had been used at time.

Moi feeling very down and depressed. Only wishes for a shoulder to cry on. Only wishes for a kiss on her forehead.

Moi doesn't know what to do. What should be done and where to go...

Moi just want someone to understand and love her once again.

Tears are trickling down like a loose pipe that aren't fixed well. Mind is confused with heart broken into pieces.

Moi really wishes she could time travel so that she would rectified all her mistakes and things would not be what it is today.

Moi only wishes that things would be better for good.

Moi is really sorry for what she had done. Moi just wanna go back!!

God please hear my prayer for I kneel to you this very moment for forgiveness and mercy. Moi is really really sorry and regretful.

Idiot Human

No matter how hard you try to be someone or do something...you are just you..Your never gonna be somebody else.

Doesnt mean you play hard to get someone to ur hands, you gonna get it. Who knows you might end up hurting yourself and losing your frens and getting nothing. Come on..pls believe in FATE. There is why the world have prophecy, fortune telling and palm reading. Whatever is yours then is yours. You really don't have to running after it. Why wanna make your life so damm tired?? Crazy fella..

Doesn't mean if you copy all Bill Gates works and hand in to your boss gonna get you any pay raise. Probably get fired cos your company gone bankcrupt for paying the fine of copyright!! Just do your best in what ever ability that God given you man..Wth are trying to do stealing someone else work?? If your so stupid that you need to copy everything everyone else do..then I suggest you go to Thames river or whatever sea that you can jump down and die. Waste of world resources!!

Seriously, people!! Can you guys just be yourself..Treat other people like treating yourself. Don't hurt them and they dun hurt you..

World Peace dudes and bitches...

Okay, I'm not trying to get emo or anything. But I think people around me are getting really shrewd..Some people are those I dunno know..some people are aqquaintances, some people are frens (not close frens..just frens and frens), some people are just idiot who I somehow know from dunno where else.

World Peace again for IDIOTSSSS!!

Crazy Rumours

Something really shock me today. Never did I realise that ppl had been saying that I used my appearance to ask for favor in my school work. I dunno is this some gossip that I should be happy about, laugh about or embarrassed. In fact, I'm quite curious about who can be such creative to think of such gossip. haha...

Appearance to ask for favor?? Am I really that seductive to hypnotize someone to finish my school work??

You know wat, I think I'm gonna be happy for this gossip!! YAY (jumping around the room happilly) for having the ability to charm ppl off...

Shirlyn : Darling dear, would you be a sweetie to help me do my homework..I'll kiss u if u do that for me sweetie...XOXO
Victim : ya, do for u do for u..no problem..my pleasure my honour for doing homework for such a sweet girl..
Shirlyn : aww..ur the sweetest dude..love u the most..give u 1 big kiss..MUAZXXXX.

I din realise I have that ability though..haha..stupid ppl with crazy ideas..IMPRESSED!!

Wait..or izzit something I should be embarrassed?? Mayb cos I'm too incompetent to even complete the degree myself dat I need someone to do my work so I can get my fucking honours degree... (Sorry to vulgar of a word..but no offence)

Anyway, this news shock me load!! Scary what people can talk about u behind your back..but the innocent me is gonna let it be..not gonna let stupid rumours get into me.

AND- if ur the person who been spreading this and still dare to read this post then ur so dead!! I so gonna skin you then burn u alive with ur skin exposed to the hot fire. I'll make ur life hell and you dun wan it cos its gonna be worse then HELL!!

Talented and crazy combo

Not wanting to brag about my bro and sis...but definitely something to be proud of!!

My sis, super talented freak..never study for exam but score like hell loads of distictions..plays the piano like Kitaro (not so water-ish though) but definitely a lovely tune to listen. I was in fact really awe listening to one of her piano tune (菊花台)Length:4:15 on FB. Din know that she could play that bloody good after I left. Maybe she was too bored, got nobody to play with..So decided to rape MY PIANO!!!


Ok lah..sheila low is not that bad la..cute girl but damm insane..I'll never be her fren cos she drives me CRAZY!!

My bro, loves all kind of sports..Play the ping pong like a FREAK..and never afraid of death, challenging the God of Death. Crazy idiot who wanna explore every single extreme stuff available on earth. But always a COOL guy to hang out with!! Anybody who dun agree can leave a msg..(tsk tsk...)

Embarrasment

Something happen at class today..Probably the most embarrasing thing in my life as well. During the progress of our current design project, I've been actively participating. However, lecturer's cruel critics made me the clown of the class today. It was a group project yet..nobody came to my aid during such critic!! unbelievable..speechless and lost hope!!

OMG..double triple OMG..

Thought that life would be different..trying to be perssimistic, open minded, not skeptical and a new beggining..But I guess it will always be the same..

kwai lou is always correct..cos they're good at bullshitting their way through..we are always wrong in their eyes.

LIFE SUCK!!

Timmy's birthday

Christmas is really near..celebrated dear Timmy's birthday last week..I think the present we gave him an I phone..I wish it was mine as well..hiak hiak..

I made fruit sandwiched sponge cake for his birthday..It din turn out the way I expected but I cover all the flaws with all kind of fruit..and the love letters on the side..Cover all the ugly stuff 99!!

Happy birthday Timmy...

New face for christmas

Once again its Christmas. This is probably my second christmas that I celebrate far away from home. Instead of making myself even more miserable, I'm giving my bloggie a new christmas facelift!! Thanks to Ally's blog who gave me the determination to revamp and add a little spice to my boring blog!!

YAY!!

There you go, my new snowman christmas-sy background to remind the kids not to be naughty as my snowman gonna tell santa whether ur have been good or naughty.

Curiously..my snowman look kinda sad isn't he??

Merry merry christmas everybody!!

Mooncake festival

I know it sounds kinda odd to blog about mooncake festival as it is already long over. But celebrating this day in UK where u hardly see any chinese..Plus the cold weather always make me miss home more. No playing candles by the park and no lattern fighting with younger kids like what we always do back home.


Though being so far away from home, we still do celebrate mooncake festival ala UK style. Sipping tea at frens house and ate home bake mooncake. Not forgetting, "family" dinner with my chinese colleagues.


Speaking of home bake mooncake, I wouldnt wanna be shy to show off some of my baking masterpiece. Though not professional but definitely tasty and healthy.

Flaky mini mooncake with pandan lotus with almonds seed filling (1st attempt)

Mini mooncakes with yam and lotus seed filling (Definitely yummy!! tasted and tested)

Hmm.. Kinda wish that mooncake festival was celebrated back home with frens, mummy daddy sis and bro..Miss you guys back in Malaysia..

what a friend

Browsing through everyone's PM made me realise how much I had missed out on my friends. Was looking at Edwin PM. promoting a blogspot. Little did I realise that the blog belongs to nevertherless bestie tong tong.. Can't belive I din even realise that she's selling and modelling clothes on the blog..How can I be that blind..

Moving in to some of Wen's post about frens..made me feel real guilty for not catching up with all of them..I'm really so so so SORRY..thousand, million and zillions of sorry..Let me undo what I had done..

Was living in my own world with work..more homework and homework..lacking initiative to blog and FB. I realise I really miss u guys so much..

Call u guys soon..muack muack..XOXO